lent..

So I'm really not the type of person that likes to make committments, resolutions, things like that. I would like to say its because of fear that I won't live up to them but truthfully I just usually don't want to.  This year Lent season came and I approached it like any other... ignoring the nudging something in my heart that was saying maybe I should do something.  But you know, when you decide to ignore God, he thankfully nudges a little harder.  I've been part of this moms group which is filled with amazing women of God. As I would hear some women giving up chocolate, another fasting every breakfast...  I would look at them and think- good for you! awesome! But not for me.
  I am a creature with an addictive personality.  one of them being to TV.  moving to Korea its been a challenge... I don't watch korean tv since its hard for me to understand. And I really can only takes so much of girl meets boy but she's poor so their parents disapprove..love story tangled..someone gets luekemia.. sad sad.   But of course like any addict, I have found a way to watch all my american shows. And then some. The problem is... I just keep clicking away and somehow watch the whole season in a few days.. and so then I start watching random movies... anything. I just want noise.  
  And so when I was doing my bible study ....the question asked: Am I continuing to do something that I know God wants me to stop? i wanted to say.. nnnnoooo?.... and then one of the options read: too much television or movie viewing?  OK. fine. hahah  And so yes, I decided to give up internet TV for Lent.  I'm sure for many this is no big deal but for me it is.
 And its been really great.  Ive been listening to music, sermons.. sleeping earlier. Having time to think :)  writing in this blog hehe..
  This week is passion week and I pray that with a little less 'noise' in my life, I'll be able to hear God a little bit clearer. :)

Follow your instinct...

You know when you have a feeling that something isnt right? or when someone is being shady? or a feeling that your not safe?  I feel like its called instinct.  Today I had one of those experiences which led me to getting out of a cab in the middle of street.  It was one of those bad feelings when I got into the cab. I guess the first warning sign was that he was smoking and continued to smoke w the window down.  Then at one of the signals I heard him push some buttons on the meter... this sparked a warning feeling in my gut and then I started to watch the meter carefully.  The meter was going up 100w every five seconds!!  I contemplated on how I would ask the driver why the meter was going up so quickly but my korean words were escaping me..

so then I literally said. Mister. Meter. Fast? why? 100won so fast so fast.  nighttime?  I wanted to know if maybe it was becuase it was late (although I found out later that it only goes up faster after midnight)  Anyhow saying these few words was enough for him to understand as he got really pissed and started to swear at me and say a whole bunch of stuff in which maybe it was to my advantage that I had no idea what he was saying.  After 2 minutes of him yelling, I yelled back. Drop me off NOW.  It was one of those feelings that I all of a sudden started to feel unsafe and I really didnt want him to know where I lived.  It was late and cold but I soon found another cab that was warm and safe.

lesson: Next time I feel like something fishy is going on.  Take a pic of the cab number or at least write it down.  Just get out without saying a word- and report them.  I did find out that there has been taxi fraud where they rigged their meters to go faster.  Gotta trust your gut.